Shit... Fuck this. D< Once again, I managed to waste another summer without getting a damn thing done. Not ONE DAMN THING. Gah, I'm so mad at myself, I can't believe it. I just don't understand it. I didn't complete one goddamn thing on my to-do list. ...Do I just fail that much? ><;;; I worked all summer on the art I owe, how could I have not gotten anything done? D8 I'm almost done with one. ONE. Big fucking whoop. I think I must have gotten slower or something. Well, I'm going to post up some WIPs today to prove I have been working. I'm so sorry, guys, I really am. I'm so disappointed in myself. I completely understand if you're mad at me. I hate this...Why can't I ever do anything I want to do? >< *sighs* And....I go back to school tomorrow. Wednesday, August 19th. Goddammit. I'm going to get them done one way or another, I swear. God, I hate myself right now. -____-;;; _{Not to mention the fact that school is starting earlier this year than it did last year. Fucking school board didn't think the students would notice. D<}

...Seriously, this was one of the worst summers I've had in I can't remember how long. >< Not only did I not accomplish anything, it was too damn hot to do any work around my house like I wanted to do. :\ So I spent most of my time sitting around complaining about the heat. >< This whole summer was just wasted time...

And if that doesn't make it bad enough, I think my absolute favorite teacher I've ever had got fired. D8 I had him for AP World History last year, and I was looking forward to having him again for AP European History this year. But....that probably won't happen. Unless by some small miracle the rumor wasn't true, but I highly doubt it. My high school sucks, I'm not surprised if they did fire him. He was too good, the kids actually liked him. That alone is enough reason to fire him. It makes me so depressed, because that was the only reason I signed up to take the class. Like I said, he was the best teacher I've ever had, and his lectures were actually interesting. He was a BAMF! D8 He told funny stories all the time, and he was different from the average generic teacher. No teacher could ever compete with him, he was just that epic. I really wanted to have him for my senior year in high school, and it's just not going to be the same without him... I don't even want to take AP Euro anymore, if he's not going to be teaching it. Even though I love history. I don't know... Maybe I'm overreacting. But it really depresses me. I'm going to feel sorry for the new teacher in a way. Everybody's going to hate her just because she replaced probably the most well liked teacher in the whole school. Unless she's a bitch. Or stupid. Or both. :\ Then I won't feel sorry for her. Regardless, I doubt she'll be as qualified to teach or as amazing as Mr. Owen. If this rumor is true, which I pray to every god out there that it's not, though it's probably pretty much a done deal, I'm going to go visit the school board and give them a hard time until they give me a good reason why he was fired and who was responsible.

Anyway, this whole year is going to be really bad, I can tell. The only plus is that I'll be graduating, but that's not even much of a consolation. If I had actually accomplished anything this summer, maybe I wouldn't mind going back as much. Or if my counselor hadn't blatantly lied to me. Regardless, here's the classes I'm going to be taking:

1. Photography- It shouldn't be too hard. Hopefully it'll be fun too, since I'd like to learn how to take pictures.

2.Chinese I- I'd love to learn Chinese, and I love language, so hopefully it'll be a fun class. At least better than my French III class last year, where we did absolutely nothing, and I didn't learn or do a darn thing except UN-learn what French I knew. >>;;; And THAT is why I didn't take French IV. Fucking lazy teacher.

3.Gym- FUCKING. HATE. GYM. If it wasn't required that I take it to graduate, I wouldn't. At least it's only a semester though.

4.AP English Literature and Composition- *shrugs* Hopefully it won't be too bad. I don't love English, but I don't hate it. Maybe we'll read some good books anyway.

5.Pre Calculus/Trigonometry- *hisses* HAAAAAATEEEEE. I fail so hard at math. But at least I didn't get the really hard asshole of a teacher, so hopefully I can do okay anyway.

6.Chemistry- Er....this is going to be hard.... I got the hard teacher who teaches it like a college class, and I'm pretty bad at chemistry, but unfortunately, it's required if I want to be an honor graduate.

7.AP European History- Normally, I love history, but.... *cries* It's not going to be any fun if Mr. Owen isn't teaching it. T.T I miss Mr. Owen! D8

So yeah, I've got a pretty hard year ahead of me. I'm going to have to work hard, BUT. I swear, I will get everything I owe done as soon as I can. It shouldn't be too much longer, I promise. Please be patient with me, I never intended for this to happen. *shoots herself* You are all free to flame me and curse me and throw things at me, because that's what I feel like doing to myself. I'm so sorry, everyone. I just...have no excuse for such failure....

I'll try and make another update soon to let everyone know how hell school went. God, I fucking hate that place, I can't wait to graduate. ><;;; But anyway, I hope everyone is doing okay, and I'll try to be more active on DA, despite school. I'll get something posted soon, if I have to shoot myself in the foot to do it. I could probably say more, but I don't have time, I can't remember, and it's probably not important anyway. _{And sorry for the long-ass journal...}